Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Learn One New Thing Everyday?

For so long, I have been on a path to learn, to grow a little everyday.  Let me tell you, it has been exhausting!  I read this today from the book, From The Mixed-Up Files Of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler by E. L. Konigsburg :

"...I think you should learn, of course, and some days you must learn a great deal.  But you should also have days when you allow what is already in you to swell up inside of you until it touches everything.  And you can feel it inside you.  If you never take time out to let that happen, then you just accumulate facts, and they begin to rattle around inside of you.  You can make noise with them, but never really feel anything with them.  It's hollow."

I have reached a time in life where I realize I want to soak up life, not just learn about a better or more efficient way to do things.  Those cool ideas about how to teach my children, which method of writing instruction is the best, which science and math they need before they graduate, and lists of things they need to know before they leave home often spin around inside me like a dryer tumbling the clothes.  Problem is I have so many ideas and so much information in the "dryer" that I sometimes burn up with guilt over not following through on them or making sure I know more about them. Instead I want to give myself time to let the peaceful, honoring, relationship nurturing ideas swell up inside of me.  I want to be happy with what I know I know and how well those things work for me. God has given me everything I need for life and godliness.  I will let the joy of that assurance brim over in my life to propel me to feel and experience what I already know, what I already have right in front of me and right inside of me.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

Why I Love My Husband

He is  a man who wants to give everything all he has.  He adores me.  He does dishes.  He cleans up my messes.  He is patient with me.  He has beautiful blue eyes, a charming smile, and strong arms to rub my back or feet or carry us when needed.  He cares about people, really cares.  He wants us to grow - as a couple, individually, as a family, as a church, as a preaching school.  He knows how to have fun.  He likes to read and listen to interesting book/ articles/ podcasts and share them with others.  He is comfortable in almost any situation able to strike up conversation and feel at ease.  He genuinely listens to me as I sort out my thoughts.  He cares about what I care about.  He wants me to be me.  He wants me to like myself and value myself.  He likes himself.  He knows his computers.  He knows his electronics.  He teaches me when I don't know either.  He makes fires.  He keeps them going.  He makes beds and cleans when I can't.  He talks to our children.  He shares desires for our children to become men of honor who love God, know God, and live for God.  He calls his mom almost every week.   -- So much more to be said for another time.

Friday, January 2, 2015

January 2, 2015

Another snowy/ icy day.  Strange weather to last so long here.  I love that my family of five can be in a house together for so many days and still have fun and get along.  We have endured some crankiness and annoying behaviors but overall it is peaceful.  A fire blazing, Monopoly City being played next to it, mom completing lesson plans for school next week.  We also made a trip to the grocery store so we are stocked up for the week maybe.

It feels good to do what I know needs doing.  Now I can do some things I just want to do tomorrow. Yay!  Having a great meal tonight and eating better yesterday and today has had a renewing effect on me as well!  Grass fed steak, stir fry veggies with extra red peppers and onions, and a Dr. Oz green smoothie = yum!

Haven't had time to reflect on last year or think about goals for the new year but I will get there.

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Scorched Leaves....Nourishing Love

I stepped out on the front porch after a much needed three hour Sunday afternoon nap to the horror of four precious houseplants burning in the hot afternoon sun.  Black leaves screaming of death and devastation to this heart that has nurtured them for the last two years or so.  You see, these are the longest plant friends I have had.  I have worked with them and often revived them through chicken pecking ,wind blowing them over, underwatering, overwatering, and many overturnings.  In return, they have graced our home with fresh oxygen and soothing beauty.  They were like a warm blanket of God's creation over me each time I caught their appearance in my kitchen and living room.  Now, they are hurting.  They have been scorched.... black leaves all over... even some of the stems are black.  And that Christmas Cactus?  It's leaves are bleached with black spots.  Will they recover?  They look miserable and make my heart heavy.

I cut away their black leaves one by one... sometimes a bunch at a time all the way to the base of the stem leaving a scraggly looking plant.  It looks a little like how I've been feeling lately.  Cut back and limp. Struggling to revive my spirit. Did I allow myself to get scorched?  Did I set myself out in the hot sun for too long?  I guess I did.  My plants were in the hot sun for 8 hours.  When I left them on the porch in the morning sun, I thought they would soon be covered with protecting shade.  I thought I would bring them in as soon as I returned home for lunch.  Exhausted when I arrived home, my thoughts turned to sleep forgetting all about my sweet friends on the porch.

Much effort is required when caring for a living creation.  Much thought must be given to its care in order for it to survive... even more for it to thrive.  I too am a living creation.  And I have a loving creator who cares for me.  When I fail to present myself before him regularly, I begin to droop.  When I am drooping, I need more of Him.  When my yeses turn me away from his refreshing, I begin to get scorched with the busyness of life.  Often I consider pleasing others as so important that it sacrifices the nourishment I need to please them with what they really desire.... my love.

Just as my plants require certain conditions to survive and thrive, so do I.  Feeling there are just too many conditions to provide for everyone, I choose those the ones generally accepted by others to be necessary. Yet, I am unique.  God made me....well, me.  What I need is not necessarily the same as what others need. I am jealous of those who don't appear to need so much refreshing.... so much time to think.... to rest.... to be still.  I need quiet time every day for an hour to rest, do some muscle relaxation, listen to soothing music.  I need time to read God's word and talk to him without interruption and without noise in the background. I need a relaxing bath once a week.  I need candles burning to remind me of the peace and light of God.  I need daily exercise... a walk, some stretching, some weight bearing exercise.  I need lots of vegetables.  I need to give myself food breaks once in a while.  I need to smile at my kids more often.  I need to play.  I need to observe the people and world around me.  I need more thankfulness in my heart.  I need to take it easy on myself when I don't measure up to my own expectations... or when things aren't going according to the plans in my head.  TRUST.  GOD.  DAILY.  Minute by minute.  BREATHE Him in.  BE STILL as often as possible. Accept failure.  Accept joy.  Accept love.  Give myself what I need not only to survive but to thrive.  Protect myself and others from the scorching of the leaves of my spirit.  Only then can I help others... and my plants ;) ... to thrive alongside me.  

God is waiting to refresh my spirit... to heal my scorched leaves..  I will lay myself at His feet and receive His nourishing love like a wave of new life washing over me!

Monday, June 3, 2013

What is an Earl?

Charlie asked this question today while we were reading King Arthur.  Here is a table to explain the many titles of the nobility of the middle ages:

Here are answers to the question: How does a man become an earl?