Sunday, June 22, 2008

My Health Adventures

I have had so many health adventures in the last few years that my head has been spinning. But after beginning to see a new chiropractor things are finally starting to change for the better. I've seen several different chiropractors in my life and even had one I really like when God seemed to point me in a different direction. I will blog about that adventure another time. This chiropractor is the husband of one of the wives in my home school group and I have already seen many great changes.

I actually started this blog as a way to record my progress or setbacks in order to better remember how things are going. It can be really hard to remember how I was doing a few days ago if I feel really good or really bad today. So, I will be keeping this blog updated as I go along in my treatments.

This morning I had a lot of trouble sitting in the pew at church. My tailbone really hurt. The Bible class chairs didn't seem to bother me though. I haven't had this problem for at least a month so it was frustrating to have it pop up today.

I wasn't as dizzy today but still felt dizzy when turning my head at times. And my frustration was hard to control when things weren't going the way I wanted them to go. For example, when the kids were trying to help me mop the hallway by stepping in the bucket with socked feet and sliding up and down the sloshing wet wooden floors of the hallway. I was expecting them to dry the already wet floor with their socked feet, not get it sopping wet!! I was able to recognize that I was getting overly frustrated and about to lay the guilt on thick. I didn't stop myself completely but was able to tone it down once I realized I didn't want to make my kids cry because they had disappointed me. I learned that when I give them a job to do, I need to give more specific instructions and not leave a bucket of water with them and then walk away!

Benjamin ate a whole plate of cut up steak for dinner quicker than I have ever seen him eat meat! Then he seemed to be revived. We didn't have any beef yesterday.

I didn't notice Allen's eyes crossing as much today. Allen looks like he is putting on a little more weight and his pants fit better. They used to fall down a bit.

That's it for today.

After Frustration, Peace

This is the day that the Lord has made! Let us rejoice and be glad in it!

Today was full of frustration but also full of recognizing God's goodness and love for me. The morning started with a little frustration over finding something to wear to worship time this morning. I have lost a bit of weight (woohoo!!) which has unfortunately made it hard to dress myself in comfortable clothes or clothes that look good on me. Anyway, right now my bed still looks like it threw up clothes. The good news is some of the clothes will not be going back in my closet which means less clutter which always makes life easier. Less clutter means more time to do the things I love to do-- like reading to my boys. It feels so good to get rid of things. More peaceful knowing things aren't stuffed in hidden places. After finally finding something to wear that I felt reasonably well dressed and comfortable in, I had a cup of hot tea and tried to prepare my mind for worship. I enjoyed talking with my oldest son about what God had done for him this week! We made it to worship, late, but got there in time to sing and adore God with a few breaks for the bathroom and quieting children.

After bible class, the family enjoyed watching the end of Nanny McPhee while our lunch reheated in the oven. But then after lunch it was time to get the house clean for small group. Jeff and I were both so tired and the kids weren't thrilled at the idea of clean up. We worked in various jobs and got it done but I felt like I was going to break down crying around 4pm. I was just so tired and had tried so hard not to yell at the kids or make them cry. Being patient and keeping your cool sure can take it out of you!!

Just before I reached the point of tears, my sweet husband said he would take the boys to get some meat at the store while I did whatever I needed to at home! He seems so tuned in to what I need to make it through my rough spots lately. Thanks be to God! I calmed down and was ready to enjoy our small group by the time they arrived.

It is amazing and wonderful to me that after feeling so frustrated all afternoon that I could feel so peaceful right now! After singing and talking with our small group I have a calm peace and joy welling up inside me. I feel God smiling and telling me to relax and enjoy this blessed life he has given me!

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Here I Go!!!!

Well, here I go forging ahead into the blogging world! I have so many thoughts in my head but such a hard time getting them said , much less remembering what I was thinking in the first place, that I thought it was time I wrote it down someplace. So there, my first thought written down in cyberspace for all to see. Well, all who want to see anyway. Sometimes I wonder who really wants to hear what I have to say. But at this moment in my life I have to do something with all these thoughts. And I really need a place to come back to and compare where I have been to where I am now. Since I am decluttering my house, I figure that an online journal might be a good place to begin. So I have begun!